Marriage Letters: My Job – Your Job

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Dear Seth,

The transition you get from counting minutes and outlining lives into a billion technical documents to our home, where by the evening our boys are on the emotional ferris wheel of mania meltdown, that transition is minimal. Often you walk in still on the phone. You barrel through to a quiet closet, loosening your tie on the way. Since we’ve had our 4th, we haven’t found much balance at all. You never know if I’ll have dinner made. I feel successful to simply still be able to stand upright.

The other day I looked up “What Tarzan swings on” because I couldn’t remember the word “vine.” I guess it’s the tired thirties.

I just know that I could start going to bed as soon as you get home, and maybe then I’d feel like I’ve had enough rest. You’re letting this brown-eyed boy stay in the bed with us, and I will always be grateful for it. All night I am aware of him, when he needs to eat, when I should hold him closer. Last night he drank and drank me empty, and I was awake the whole time, and his arm would go up in the air and gently run along on my shoulder to my elbow. I lay awake and relish, and by morning I ache all over.

I realize, I do, that you used to be fed in more ways, used to be held closer, close enough to run your hand along my arm. The longer we’re married, the more perspective I have on phases, how there’s another side to this.

You wake at 5:15 every morning to sit in the quiet, to read and write. Our quiet moments, when all we hear is the cup hit the coaster, those are ours. Then you shave and iron, and you put on your heavy shoes and go where men speak in roman numerals, where what you do is put on the scales. Entire accounts with egos and files and homes and families are in your care. You know how to smile and tell people that everything they’ve said is wrong. In fact, often it’s your job to find the things that are wrong. A judge slams down the gavel, worlds on your shoulders.

Not even a hair of me has ever even thought a millisecond about going to law school. Sometimes when we argue, you outline your points: A, B, C. You have a lawyer face that’s hard to take off before getting home. We’re certainly a match. I give you a run for your money.

We’re still learning, but we know to not to make comparisons about whose job is harder. Every single time we both lose. My job is harder than yours, and I know it. You believe the same about yours. We both feel the weight of 4 souls. I know you feel the weight 5. I also know that when I leave for three hours to buy groceries that your eyes are way more googly when I get home. My eyes would roll right out of my head if I tried your load. So we leave it at that.

Thanks for being okay that I don’t wear makeup every day and keep the crockpot hot. Thanks for being the kind of man that makes us happy to see him. Thanks for being happy to see us.

I do love your arms.




Please do join Seth, Joy, Scott, and me as we hold our marriages up to the light. Call your marriage what it really is. Every Monday we’re writing letters because we believe that when we bless our own marriage, we bless the marriages of others. When you go hard after your marriage, I’m encouraged to go after mine. Thank you for joining us. Next week we’ll write on “I Know You Love Me When.”


  1. I’ve loved all these letters, but this is my favorite so far. So often I get caught in that “my job is harder than yours” trap, and it’s a dangerous mindset. I love how you put it; I love how you took the fight right out of it, put it in stories. So thank you.
    Addie Zierman recently posted..Women in Ministry

  2. I do smile so big every time I read these Monday letters – and today, just a little mist across my eyes. Amen to every word, here and at Seth’s.

    erika @ the life artist recently posted..the :: c :: word

  3. Yes. How do we compare sweat and muscle aches, worry and burden? Sometimes, I think: What I wouldn’t give to be on a business trip right now, having dinner at an elegant restaurant with grown-ups, then off to a hotel room where I would sleep without wearing a child as a scarf. But then the Holy Spirit whispers my Companion’s thoughts: What he wouldn’t give to be home right now, wrapped in the love of four little bodies, listening to laughter and playing Lego war and going to bed with his own pillow and his best friend.

    We each walk our own road, and the best we can do is offer grace to our closest sojourners.

  4. I am past those days you are in, the ones that made me cry at the question, “how are you” and thought would devour me. But here I am, past the thirties and saying what “they” say is true, it does get easier. Easy is born in time. And when I told my husband that I would go speak to the thousands he would address one morning at church, if he would stay home to be with a crabby four year old and a baby, he said, “I would if I could” and I believed him. Love this letter, the way you two do life, love each other. Thank you for being so honest.
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  5. It’s like you crawled into our own home these past few months, prophet.
    Sarah@EmergingMummy recently posted..In which Anne turns five-and-a-half

  6. Amber, Thanks for starting this. I have really enjoyed reading your post each Monday…well, really every post…but especially Mondays. I really have enjoyed writing letters to my husband each week. I probably should write more on paper for him also….for only him. I let the girls take an extra long bath today as I sat on the closed toilet seat and wrote my letter to Q. I just couldn’t wait. :) Thanks Amber!
    Audrey @ Q and A recently posted..Marriage Letters: My Job – Your Job

  7. Oh we do the “my job is harder” thing more than I’d care to admit. Such a draining, pointless argument. Thankful for this series reminding me to value my man and our marriage.
    Amanda @Wandering recently posted..the marriage letters – my job, your job

  8. I love this project and am so excited to link up for the first time. I just now read back, and I think I was supposed to write about nightly rituals. I didn’t. Still, it’s a start.

    Thank you for your and Seth’s example.
    Brandee Shafer recently posted..For My Man

  9. the paragraph on what he does all day? yes, ma’am. you’ve made a study of him, sister. i love reading how you both really see each other. that’s no small thing.
    keLi recently posted..on marriage: the philosopher’s wife

  10. “how there’s another side to this.” yes, both in stages and loving and parenting and perspective. love this! what a great reminder throughout marriage, even though you had a specific reason in stating it.
    yes, indeed, there is always another side to whatever experience we find ourselves traveling through.
    i just love it when i find one little phrase to chew on for a few days, and this is the one for me. may God continue to bring it to mind when i most need to remember it.
    HopeUnbroken recently posted..marriage letters—my job, your job

  11. I enjoy these weekly posts. I don’t always get to comment on all of them, but it is so inspiring to see so many people stepping out and writing letters to their spouses in meaningful ways. Be blessed, Amber and know that you are blessings many by encouraging others with their stories to tell through the lost art of letter writing.

    Michelle Bentham recently posted..How To Select A Carpet Shampooer For Your Home

  12. Oh how I love this. Will I come across too much like a giddy fan-girl if I say how much I look forward to Mondays on your blog? You have such a gift for weaving honesty and beauty, and these posts on marriage are like breaths of fresh air to my own.

    P.S. – The job topic? It’s a doozy, but a doozy worth honoring. Thanks.
    Bethany recently posted..MRS

  13. Sigh. I know this dilemma oh-so-well. When overwhelmed by the needs of little ones, it is so tempting to daydream about another life, another job. But there is none better. Truly. You and Seth are each doing what is yours to do just now. It will not always look and feel like it does today. There will be good shifts and hard shifts, but you’ve made such a strong, strong foundation here – you talk to each other well. You empathize. You see the good stuff as well as the tough stuff. You will see your sons grow into fine adults. Yes, you will. And you will devour those grandkids – hard to believe when you live with little ones 24/7 – but it will happen. Faster than you might imagine. In the meantime, keep on liking those good, strong arms. And keep on writing it all down. Oh yes, that.
    diana trautwein recently posted..Time Away: A Photo Essay on Theological Reflection

  14. I’m married to a lawyer, too, so I know the kind that makes a case, convinces with points that outline themselves lightning-fast in his mind. There’s no doubt he’s a J on the Myers-Briggs scale. Thank the Lord He put me with someone to make a little more black and white out of my grey!

  15. Amber, You have an incredible gift for sharing deepest truths through story. I’m linking this one today from

    – Jennifer Dukes Lee
    Contributing Editor (Family) @ The High Calling

  16. This is beautifully written, so honest and raw! Love it! thanks for sharing!

  17. Wendy@howtotranslatepdf says:

    Such a love story. It’s really heart warming reading those kind of story, that they still manage to love each other after all. :)

  18. I love these letters, Amber. Since John and I have switched roles (it’s been almost a year now), with him and home and me at work, we see the hardness of our jobs even clearer.

    I love Seth’s descriptions of your boys playing. It is so, so familiar to me. And it makes me miss being home with them, in all it’s harder-in-some-ways-ness.

    Thank for making yourselves vulnerable through these letters in order to encourage the rest of us in our marriages. I say that with absolute sincerity. You are a beautiful woman, and I sense that Seth is a pretty incredible guy himself.
    Elizabeth recently posted..lineage

  19. you love so deeply, so tenderly…
    imperfect prose recently posted..on how to know the joy of the Lord when you’re in a van full of crying kids

  20. When I read these letters written by soul, spirit, heart and body, I feel like a voyeur. Your lovewords are beautiful, evidences of covenant held close, and it makes me a little sad knowing I “can’t” take part in this lovely exchange.

    And, yet, I’m happy for those who celebrate hard love, lasting love, overcoming love. Three cheers, yes?

    Robin ~ Pensieve recently posted..People need people so hug a tree (in)RL 3 Thoughts on Community


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